Recent events have put me into a bit of a reflective mode. In trying to adjust to whatever passes for normal life, I’ve been re-evaluating what is really important to me. On a practical level, this has meant crossing lots of things off my to-do list (including the stuff that’s been there forever, that I not realistically going to get around to and doesn’t really matter in the grand scheme of things – that actually felt really good!), and thinking about how much I’ve been taking on outside of work commitments. Although I don’t try to do as much as some people I can think of (*cough* @Batty_Towers *cough*), I have been guilty in the past of trying to do a bit more than I really had time for.
I think a scaled-down to-do list was probably overdue, to be perfectly honest. It’s just that before, I was stressed, but still able to keep up with everything. Now, everything feels like it’s taking about 300% more effort than it should, so I’m going to have to stop doing things in order to let myself recover. On the other hand, I’ve found I do feel better when I’ve got things to be doing, so I’m not about to drop everything. I think this is going to be about finding a balance between keeping myself just busy enough, and not taking on things that are just going to stress me out.
So what does this actually mean I’ll be doing? Well, I am going to have to scale back on my extra-curricular professional development stuff. I plan to honour any commitments I’ve already made, but I’m not saying yes to anything else until I’m really ready to throw myself back into work again. What I’m aiming for is to have more free time to myself – whether that be to talk to and spend time with my family, go out for walks with my camera, or just sit and write. I’d really like to be able to focus more on writing, in particular – I’ve always been an aspiring writer, but have never got that far with anything I’ve tried. I’m hoping that by refocusing my free time on things that I enjoy, and do for no reason other than that I enjoy them, it’ll help me keep my sanity when I’m dealing with work-related things.
Of course, that doesn’t mean I’m giving up on my CPD altogether! One of the things I would like to spend more time on is this blog, which has really been neglected over the past few months. I’m really excited about 23 Things for Professional Development, which I hope will give me a reason to start blogging regularly again. I will of course be blogging from the SLA conference next month too!
That’s pretty much my plan anyway: do a bit less of the things that stress me out, and a bit more of the things that I enjoy. Sounds like a generally good idea for anyone really, I wonder why I never thought of it before…